During our time, I was repeatedly pointed back to Scripture, 1 Timothy specifically. As I let hot water consume me this morning, the song Guard The Trust by Steve Camp came up on my IPod.
I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has given me strength, that he considered me faithful, appointing me to his service. Even though I was once a blasphemer and a persecutor and a violent man, I was shown mercy because I acted in ignorance and unbelief. The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.
-- 1 Timothy 1:12-14
Sometimes, the truth you need is the truth you know. I have referenced Timothy for other people so frequently that perhaps it just became rote. Does that ever happen to you? You find yourself singing the words because you know them, not because you mean them? You say the prayer because of the habit not the heart?
In this case, stepping back to re-read the book instead of skipping to the pointed passages removed the scales from my eyes. This little shot of encouragement was all that was needed to reset my foundation and give me the clarity to address reality. Sort of like when I skip work-outs over a weekend and I feel tired on Monday. My first thought is I need to catch up on sleep. If I do that, invariably I find myself off to a slow start the next morning. But if I jump into a workout, the endorphins kick in and I perk right up and move strongly into the week.
Once again my bumbling has proven that if you are truly seeking, the truth will find you no matter how lost you've become.